- With the bishie you must part.
- I want...,I don't want...
1/2 Prince is awesome. It always makes me smile. But there also those most ridiculous situations, where I can only think, "Ouch. That hurts.". Luckily, the bizarre plot makes up for it. Only one more volume to go and then I am finished with it. Unfortunately, that volume hasn't been translated yet. So I have to busy myself with another awesome novel by Yu Wo until they have finally translated it. They should update the manhua as well.
Again I find myself in a situation, where I just want to take all my feelings, stuff them into a trash can and set that can on fire. Going to my grandparents' place, where I have really nothing to do to get my mind off of things, is also not helping. So I was going mad until yesterday. Doesn't mean that getting back home stops me from going mad. No, I am quite sure that these thoughts will haunt me for an extended period of time. I tried to get Charles to keep those thoughts away from me, but he's mad at me. Or well, he has always hated me, but last time, he did accept my thoughts(okay, they were certainly a different kind of thoughts, but hey, thoughts are thoughts, right?). So...any idea how to please a demon child who is obsessed with beauty?
I want to write. I want to write a lot. I have three ideas for blog posts, but I think only two are going to make it here. Because it is definitely too early for "42 things about me, now and then". But if we're lucky, then I actually manage to finish this post and an other post, which hopefully will not somehow turn sappy. Because it is already getting off topic.
I just confirmed something. And I got really distracted by this confirmation. I should start writing in script format again. I already feel sorry for Lulu...and myself whenever I actually post that thing. It's been over a year, hasn't it? Ahahaha...people will definitely not be pleased.
My feelings have definitely not been tampered with. But I sort of feel like I have been manipulated a lot and now I am trying to figure out how much has there been truth and how much has there been manipulative stuff. I can definitely not take real life as some sort of...way to tell apart truth from lies. Not that there would have been lies, but actions and words just don't match up.
I am feeling guilty. I am feeling selfish. I am having second doubts I am not supposed to have. But let's push these thoughts away. It's only two days until I get my vacation after all.
Yesterday we had lovely weather. I was out for only twenty minutes and got drenched from head to toe. I didn't even notice it. Another nice thing was the cotton candy. I've been craving for it for two months now and I finally got lucky. The first piece of fluff put me in high spirits.
Meow,
H.
(Are Randoms bishies?)
You are completely right about the cotton candy, who is Charles, not sure about the bishies and yes, no, yes, yes, maybe.
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