I want.

I want to drive someone crazy.
I want to get hit by lightning.
I want to run outside in the rain.
I want to paint a picture.
I want to write "A guide on how to deal with idiots." for future reference.
I want to hurt someone.
I want to mess up my life.
I want to stop thinking.
I want to become an ice block.
I want to take my emotions and feelings and throw them into a trash bin.
I want to set that bin on fire.
I want to forget.
I want to stop my dreams.
I want to control my subconsciousness.
I want to become a panda, whose job is to be a panda.
I want to write down every single thought I will ever think and then laugh at it later.
I want to calm down.

At least now I know that I can't cry in a dream.