A dramatic letter to conscience

Dear weirder, who might be reading this!

I'd call you stranger, but for now I am clinging to horrible puns for the sake of my sanity, if that makes any coins. I've already written a letter today, but I haven't sent it, because it is mainly filled with accusations and directed a person, who is really none of my concern anymore. But I have taken some necessary measures, so the letter will stay as a document in my computer and never be sent.
 I would love to talk about things that I have done lately, but there is not much to tell. I am emotionally drained again, though I admit this is my own fault. It had nothing to do with overtiredness and I'm simply looking forward to seeing my friend again, who I was able to talk to at one crucial point. I broke down in front of her and funnily enough, her words of comfort were not "it is going to be all right" but "you are so cute". Yes, weirder, the friends I pick are unique and you should feel damn proud that I consider you one of them.
 On another note, thanks to a letter I received a few days ago, I have realized that I have done unjust to one of my closest friends. Because I was selfish, I stopped opening up to her and now I realize I have done wrong and I hope to make up to it soon. It will keep me away from bad thoughts for the mean time.
 I wasn't actually planning on writing this sort of letter, but I felt that if I didn't post this, something bad would have happened. Unfortunately enough, I got the move on too late, so I haven't managed to say something especially meaningful. I couldn't tell you about the person who hates me, yet shares a lot with me, I couldn't tell about people I have had incredibly long phone calls with, I couldn't tell you about fish fingers and custard. I couldn't tell you about the silent plea I had yesterday, I couldn't tell about how easily I can hurt myself with words. But let's leave you with a nice thought: the world won't change with pretty words alone. So rather than speaking about it, I shall indulge myself in activities that will help me broaden my mind and realize how ridiculous I have been the last 24 hours.

Yours sincerely,
H.